You took me around the block, but I couldn't stop I thought it was real

I am just so sad. I can't stop crying. He keeps making me cry, and I don't know why I keep letting him hurt me like he is. It's because I've fallen. I didn't want to, and I knew that it would end up this way, me miserable and crying and incredibly hurt. Another boy slips through my fingers before I ever really get a chance. Not going to have a boyfriend again this time. What is wrong with me????? I seriously cannot take this anymore. I'm not capable of handling these emotions. They're drowning me in my own sorrow and I can barely see the surface as I struggle to come up for air. I never had much hope in the first place. How will I ever have any ounce that it will ever work out now? EVERY SINGLE ONE has turned out this way. It will never be any different. What's the point in trying?