This love is killing me but you're the only one

I finally admitted to someone else--and myself--that I really don't like my job. I think I'm going to start looking around for another one or maybe even look into going back to school. I want to be happy and like what I do, but the truth is, and I can't keep denying it, I don't. But I still feel so guilty about it. And I don't know what's going to happen with Alex. I'm slowing down so I don't scare him away. And I'm not going to talk to him again until he contacts me or it's been a few days. No, have to wait until he wants to call or talk to me. Otherwise, I get the hint.