And I'm hoping my dreams bring you close to me

I hate this part. The endless waiting and speculation. Will he call? When will he call? Did he really mean it? You tell yourself that you're not going to get your hopes up, that you don't expect anything to happen. But deep down, you know that's a lie. All you want is for that one phone call from him. It's all you think about. It's always there in the back of your mind, always lurking somewhere within everything little thing you do. You try and tell yourself that it's no big deal if he doesn't. It's all to spare yourself the hurt when he really doesn't call. So you wait, and you wait, and you wait. Maybe he'll call me later. Nothing happens. Ok, so that doesn't mean that he won't. He just didn't today. He'll call tomorrow. So your whole day you go on, wishing and hoping to hear from him. You inherintely base your plans on possibly getting that phone call. Should you make plans for that night? What if he calls and asks what you're doing? You don't want to be busy. But then again, you don't want to appear like all you've been doing is waiting around for his call (but honestly, of course, that's not true). It drives you absolutely mad. You become attached to your phone, even taking it into the bathroom when you go, because hey, he could call while you're in the shower, and you definitely don't want to miss it. You glance over at your cell constantly, checking to make sure it didn't somehow turn the ringer to silent (it could happen...). You become obsessed. Then you start to realize, why the heck am I doing this to myself? It's stupid to act this way. Here comes the anger aimed towards your actions. I'm such an idiot. How did I ever actually think he'd call me? Of course he wouldn't. Good things like this never happen me. It's a vicious cycle. It seems to happen with every guy; yet, you never seem to learn. Except now, everytime you promise yourself that you'll never fall for it again. But you do. Because we all have that little voice inside our heads whispering thoughts of hope. It keeps us going, it keeps the faith alive that there will be someone who does follow through on his word. Maybe, just maybe...