I wrote this on my other site...but I don't want him to possibly see it

Sometimes it takes one idiotic action to make you realize how stupid you've been. Why do we let them run our lives? Why do we go running back to them whenever THEY WANT US? Why do we waste so much time on guys who only care about one thing: THEMSELVES??? What about what I WANT? What I NEED? Relationships involve two people--so why do we always let one of them call all of the shots? Maybe this happened for a reason. Maybe I was meant to go through so much heartache in order to clear the way for a real, lasting love. I don't think I could ever truly realize how dumb I was being unless this happened. I probably would have never learned. I should've known. I did know. I knew exactly what would happen, yet, I still went with it anyways. There's no one to blame except myself. And that's ok, because I've been warned many, many times. I always said I wouldn't, that I'd be strong, that I'd never take it. Mistakes happen. And you learn from them. Hopefully, I will learn from this one and won't make the same mistake again--with him or anyone else. Because he is never going to change, no matter how much I think he might. It's probably just not meant to be. And if it is, he will change, he will prove to me otherwise. But until then, I need to move on. No matter how much it hurts, and no matter how much I want to believe of what things could be.