When the sun shines we'll shine together

I don't want to like him. No. Get out my head already! I can't get attached. I won't let myself get attached. He can't provide what I'm looking for. I don't need a distraction like him, because it will pull me in the wrong direction. A direction I don't want to go anymore. That I promised myself I wouldn't because I know I deserve more, deserve better. I can't chase him...if he wants to talk to me or see me, he will. I can't give him the satisfaction of knowing that I like him, when he's the one that's incredibly lucky to just be talking to me. And that's not just being conceited. I mean, he's four years younger than me! My brother's age!! But still, it doesn't matter what age a guy is, the feelings are still the same as with every other one. Stupid crush! Go away, just leave me alone. I don't want to get hurt again. Not like this, not by him. Save the heartbreak for someone who's really worth it in the future. Not another fling. But I have a feeling it's already too late...

I am really that freaking insecure? Once again, I have prematurely overreacted. And made an idiot of myself. So what's new???

Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

I was trying to make the best of the situation and not let myself regret what had happened. I know I should have never let it go that far, but I wasn't hating myself for it. Until now. Until I learned that I was a huge mistake to him. Oh, and where did I learn about this? On his stupid facebook status. Finding out that he needs to reevaluate his decisions again. And to make it worse, a ton of people on his wall keep asking him what he did to make him feel that way. It's nice to know that it's you. It's not just that he thinks it was a mistake, but that he was telling the whole freaking world about it. I just hope he hasn't told anyone that it was me. It's not even about naming my name. It's to be "some girl." Just knowing it's you, it really makes you feel so great about yourself. And to find out that way. I knew, too, it didn't mean anything, and wasn't going to start acting like I wanted to be his girlfriend or anything. I don't know if it was the smartest thing to call him out on it in that message, but I had to. I'm hurt, and he should know it, know that he was being a jerk by putting it out there like that. This is exactly why I had stopped doing this kind of thing and was waiting until I was in a relationship. So much for that. Guess I just got caught in the moment, again. One more lesson I will try to learn from. Now, just got to try to not let it ruin my day.