Monday, June 11, 2007

Thanks for the memories, even though they weren't so great

I was trying to make the best of the situation and not let myself regret what had happened. I know I should have never let it go that far, but I wasn't hating myself for it. Until now. Until I learned that I was a huge mistake to him. Oh, and where did I learn about this? On his stupid facebook status. Finding out that he needs to reevaluate his decisions again. And to make it worse, a ton of people on his wall keep asking him what he did to make him feel that way. It's nice to know that it's you. It's not just that he thinks it was a mistake, but that he was telling the whole freaking world about it. I just hope he hasn't told anyone that it was me. It's not even about naming my name. It's to be "some girl." Just knowing it's you, it really makes you feel so great about yourself. And to find out that way. I knew, too, it didn't mean anything, and wasn't going to start acting like I wanted to be his girlfriend or anything. I don't know if it was the smartest thing to call him out on it in that message, but I had to. I'm hurt, and he should know it, know that he was being a jerk by putting it out there like that. This is exactly why I had stopped doing this kind of thing and was waiting until I was in a relationship. So much for that. Guess I just got caught in the moment, again. One more lesson I will try to learn from. Now, just got to try to not let it ruin my day.

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