Thursday, May 22, 2008

Wanna make you my baby, gotta make you my baby

I just can't figure myself out with this guy! One minute I like him, or I think I like him, the next, I'm not so sure. Every sign says that I should like him--he's pretty much everything I've been looking for: cute, has a job/career, done with school, my age...But I just don't know! It's been over a month now that we've been dating (broke that record!), and I still feel like something is missing on my end. And I'm not exactly sure what it is or why I feel like this. It's driving me crazy because I really want to like him, to feel like he feels about me. Maybe that's part of the problem--he's still way more into me than I am. It's not necessarily a bad thing, but I think it freaks me out a little bit. For one thing, I'm not used to it. I keep thinking that I'm feeling so uncertain because subconsciously I'm scared--especially scared that I'm going to get hurt again. Which is strange because this guy seems to have no intention of doing something that would hurt me and has indicated that he won't be going anywhere any time soon. And isn't that what I've always wanted? I think I find myself disappointed, that maybe I set my expectations a little too high and now that I finally have what I've been looking for...I'm like, "this is it?" I think what's lacking a bit for me is my attraction to him. I normally am the one who falls head over heels, who feels extremely attracted to the person. But this time, not so much. I mean, I find myself really hesitant to kiss him, and well, just kind of not wanting to! I think part of that has to do with me not being sure of my feelings for him, so I feel awkward and weird about it. I don't want to give up yet. Well, I kind of have, but I know I shouldn't. Yeah, I don't feel like I have before. But those times before never worked. So I guess I am finally "taking it slow." Really slow. Just trying to develop some feelings for the guy--that's what dating is all about. And if my feelings don't end up changing, then well, that's dating! But I really hope something within me changes soon, because sometimes I feel like I'm pretending and being forced into saying or indicating I feel a certain way when I don't all because I don't want to ruin things or hurt him. Not so smart, I know. I just wish I could honestly say I liked him without any reservations. But not yet.

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